I've had such a wonderful day! I kind of spent a bunch of time just sitting around waiting for my aunt and uncle to shop, but I got to go to Pac Sun, and I got free jeans that fit! Then I went out for dim sum and it was so good! Curry + cuttlefish = genius! I think I'm going to have to put off visiting Chicago and Northwestern until Monday, lol.

Happy Christmas guys! Or whatever winter solstice holiday you celebrate.

Title: All I Need
Series: Marvel/Avengers
Pairing: Steve/Tony
Rating: PG (This part)
Beta: Thanks tsukinofaerii , ellyr_in_ink , and jazzypom 
Summary: After being tried for his actions involving the SHRA, Tony is forced under house arrest. But he's not a prisoner in his own home. Instead, he has to live with Steve.

(Hold that smile, that's all I need)

Title: All I Need
Series: Marvel/Avengers
Pairing: Steve/Tony
Rating: PG (This part)
Beta: Thanks tsukinofaerii , ellyr_in_ink , and jazzypom 
Summary: After being tried for his actions involving the SHRA, Tony is forced under house arrest. But he's not a prisoner in his own home. Instead, he has to live with Steve.

 

( Hold that smile, that''s all I need )

A/N: Loved it? Hated it? Comments about my fic are very much appreciated!

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The most ironic thing is that when I was writing my story is that I thought, "there's not enough sexual tension!" For two guys that are supposed to be kinda-sorta sexually attracted to each other, NOTHING happens in my writing. Nope, no comments on appearances or embarrassing reactions. Definitely part of this is my repressive readership, but it's probably mostly a "muddled, confused liminal view of sexuality from someone who does not understand nor try to acknowledge the entire depth of the matter." It isn't realistic, nor relevant, but that was it: "There's no sexual tension here!"

What I didn't expect was when I got my story back were the words "yaoi!" etched in indelible black ink on the pure white paper sheeting, disfiguring the words like an awful scar (hm...). In other words, everyone who read my story thought it was "gay gay gay gay gay!!!"

Now, I guess I do write some questionable stuff with my "confused, liminal view of sexuality." But this says a lot about the contemporary (read: my classmates') attitude on sexuality. There's the obvious homophobia (obligatory groan so you don't have to tell me about it), but there's also a reflection about how intimacy is automatically taken to be sexual in nature.

I suppose I should've seen it coming when I decided to tell people about my wonderful story in the first place. "There's a guy named Tony who has to live with his friend Steve forever!" Maybe a quarter of the responses I got back were, "Why do they have to live with each other?" Far more common was, "ARE THEY GAY???"

So, Steve and Tony were close friends (not as if the readers know that), and they've been through a lot together, so they're bound to be more comfortable with each other than the typical same-gender best buddies, like not acting like insecure middle schoolers when having to share the bed with each other ("Let's see what Steve and Tony do in bed with each other!!!"). And all of this is taken to be read as "zomg they want each other!" I'm glad that they can see the HoYay at least.

But actually, this goes way beyond my classmates.

So, I like slash and stuff. It's cute. But do I think it's canon? No, we can save that for fanfiction. But I don't understand it when I see so many people go, "They're totally jumping each other like rabbits behind the scenes!" Is some non-sexual touching really reflective of people's sexuality? But that's another topic for "later."

Oh, it's just me and my "muddle, confused liminal view of sexuality again."

I'm going to have to write a more coherent "treatise" on this later.

P.S. Hey classmate, Steve getting a girlfriend wouldn't rule out anything between them. Yeah guys, try to wrap your minds around that.

While I was playing Princess Maker 2 pretending to be Otacon pretending to be Snake raising a daughter, my computer crashed. Thankfully, my dad is a real computer genius, so I have all of my files on my comptuer back and I just need to reinstall everything.

Well, not quite.

The thing is, my files are still here. But since I left them on my desktop, my computer has the stupidest permission settings ever and won't let me reacess them. I'm not too sure what to do about that, but I guess I'll find something. Also, my sound driver still doesn't exist. So no music, but I have nothing to listen to anyways.

I'm writing this on IE6 (that's from a long time ago!), so here's everything I need to reinstall:

Firefox
Last.fm (but not before getting my sound back)
Whatpulse
Mediamonkey
DOS box and D-box (so I can continue my game of Princess Maker 2, which still exists!)
u Torrent
avast!

But probably not my games. I think I still have lots of the original install files though.

I don't know about the rest.

I guess it will be a pain to reinstall so many things, but at least my computer really is virus-free now (I would hope), so my anti-virus software will really work. And I think I can try to install Vocaloid again.

Wow, anyone reading this? Too bad I don't have anything to say, because despite knowing about being bisexual since the age of 12, my sexuality is 1.666666 x 10 ^ -8 % irrelevant. (Shhh...I calculated this with my graphing calculator! It must be right!)

OMG I broke the curve on my English class today. I am so proud of it, so I have to post it here. Yeah!

So I thought I was a pretty tolerant, people-liking person, but now I realize how much I HATE everyone. lol, I guess not being able to stand anyone would kind of affect my mood, but eh. Whatever. So now like I want to be Terra from the story I wrote this summer, so I could kill people ON MY WHIMS. lol

So I guess I really sound like I need to go to the psych. Unfortunately, despite my parent's income, we actually have no insurance.

Maybe I just need to get off the internet some.

Oh God, just wait till I get sexiled in college. That will be the day.

Also, I really want rule 63'd Steve/Tony. Like, both of them

I wish I had more friends who would have to put up with reading this.

Wow, people's computers seem to crash a lot. I only seem to suffer from external hardware problems. And with Morrowind, roms, torrents...and a dead anti-virus system.

I realized I spent my entire summer playing cello WITH ONE PIECE just so I could get into the orchestra. It's great, but...

THIS IS NOT A BIG DEAL

It would be great if I managed to get into Curb or Blair (if I was willing to travel so far), but guess what...?

It's the county orchestra. Like, the Riverside of orchestras. (The Asian percentage is about the same too!) Not to diss anyone who goes there, of course.

On the other hand, my mom thinks that I might not have been even able to get in (despite the fact I still probably can't play the orchestra music...) and I guess my cello teacher too. So that's why we had to go through every little mistake. Or orchestra or not, I would have to anyways. ARGH.

I hate Chinese music teachers.

Why do I miss all of the wank?

Maybe I should start some. As a "sochul experiment" you know?

It's a guy wearing a horned helmet and a cape that has wings.

So, I'm here with another question: Why possessive!Steve?

Now, I'm not trying to criticize this characterization. In fact, I absolutely adore it. But the problem is, I don't know why. I suppose you don't really need a reason to like a characterization, but I really would like to find mine. Could anybody try to enlighten me?

Sorry for being so spammity.

I just got my braces off today. And my retainers on.

What am I supposed to with my blanket at night now?

A line is drawn in the blue sky
By the airplane's vapor trail
Continuing to nowhere, continuing forever
As if it knew tomorrow

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Title: Let Go
Series: Marvel/Avengers
Pairing: Steve/Tony
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: The following characters belong to Marvel comics. I do not claim ownership for them nor am I making money off of this.
A/N: Dystopia AU. Maybe based on Warren Ellis's Ruins, maybe not. Also, much thanks to my wonderful beta absolutionbot .

( Tony Stark knows that the world is going to hell. )

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Rant the first:

If you're going to write an entire story in italics, then why is it in italics at all?

Rant the second:

Deadpool without his suit on? Maybe you like seeing things that would be repulsive to most people, but unless so, DO NOT WANT.